Entry #001 - March 3: starting this out of boredom and also to have some sort of diary i don't have to hide from family, i don't want to worry about grammar in my entries. i'll keep everything lowercase. anyways, behind on a lot of stuff, lied to my parents multiple times about having homework done because i didn't want them looking over my shoulder, and also can't find my laptop charger, so i've been borrowing other people's chargers. can't focus on the science class or language arts, which i do feel guilty about because my science and LA teacher is really nice but really tired, especially of us students. i was doing so good at the start of the semester, too. the only good thing i've done is get into 1st violin in the sinfonia class of the string project. the string project is something for middle and elementary schoolers who play stringed instruments. it's at the university in town and we're taught by college students. violin's the only thing i'm good at. yesterday i tuned my dad's acoustic guitar, and read off my violin sheet music for Clair de Lune, at least the first few lines. i don't know any guitar. i wish i did.
Entry #002 - March 21: i had a seperate diary page but that kinda just broke. i moved my first entry here. anyways i'm super behind in app creation class so that's fun. i just realized i probably can't do tonetags here. that's unfortunate. anyways, next week is spring break. it's friday right now. currently in social studies. last friday was a school "dance". i planned to go with my partner, but due to my parents arguing in my bedroom i couldn't get the two dollars i needed to buy a ticket to it at lunch. from what i heard, it was really overstimulating to my partner. i made a bracelet yesterday that reads "STXLLXTHYST" because the room i was in had other kids get to the vowels before me. not much else to say except i finally found my friend's neocities. hi, [-----]. UPDATE: it just occured to me that i may have doxxed them on accident and that they will now read my webpage. so, i removed their name
Entry #003 - April 2: So, it's World Autism Awareness Day today, right? I am currently angry enough to be typing with CORRECT GRAMMAR. Our school has a slideshow with things going on and school news. We wear blue today, and that's fine. But the phrase the used was "light it up with blue!" The problem is that it has really ableistic roots. Electroshock therapy. Which used to be used to "cure" autism and led to deaths. Also, the slide about today had many things from Autism Speaks (which, according to my ASD partner, supported ECT for autism) such as the puzzle ribbon. This was... very distressing for them, and for those of us friends with them once we were told the meaning. They might be writing an e-mail right now. Anyways, this is leading me to make my topic on our podcast project in language arts to be about ableism. Also, I think my grades are terrible. It's Wednsday.
Entry #004 - May 12: My partner is in the MH. They had a really close best friend that they only met this year that had surgery on friday. They got so worried about her that they [--------].
Entry #005 - May 18: The theory is they'll be back in August. I was writing on a school computer last time, hence the odd censoring. "MH" is mental hospital. You can likely guess what that censored part is. School ends in a few days. I don't know what to do then. Of course, play violin as usual. And maybe learn piano. And digital art. And study textbooks so I don't feel like I'm a failure grade-wise.
Entry #006: They were back for a few months. It was nice. Our plan is now that I go to college and they find a job. I don't actually want to be a nurse or anything. It's just all I can think of that I can do in the future. Musicians and visual artists often don't make enough money, and I'd be happy as a waitress or something, but for all I know that might get replaced and won't make enough money to live on. Or maybe I have a pessimistic and skewed view of the future thanks to my dad's rants. I don't know... anyways where the heck is my art pen. It's been missing since april. I'll... rant a bit more about my life when I'm not being monitored by the school network.
Entry #007: I go to the library after school to do my homework, but I can't focus. Anyways, my mom has listened to some of the "Hawaii: Part II" songs and she likes them. Yesterday, after school, I was with a friend of mine. We were in the orchestra room and we messed around with the piano. She taught me some of Stranded Lullaby, and she also sent me a link to Final Duet's sheet music. Obviously, without a Musescore subscription, I can't download it to print it, so I just have to memorize the violin part on my own. I'm typing this during study period. Anyways, I think I finally managed to change the backgound color today, it wasn't updating.